The Adulting Series - Time is Running Out

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 Adulting Series - #1



They say "na who first buy, na him buy old model" as a way to console you when your peers seem to be getting ahead and you're putting in the work but nothing is coming forth.

They say in your 20s the pressure you feel is only in your head and there's so much ahead of you but what no one tells you is that you're running out of time slowly. You want the things you want at the time you want them and though they say there still time to get these things, some of the reasons you want to these things won't always be there.

The day I felt I failed as an adult? It was the day I realized this truth. 

My dad and pillar of hope and strength had done it all for me. Raised my sister and I alone after our mom died, being such a true support and everything you can dream of in a parent. Well, time passes and health trails, he became ill. He stayed that way for a while, we tried what we could, patching up what we could with the little we had until that couldn't suffice anymore. 

There was no money for the best care, no money for the surgery early enough to delay the onset of death and when we had emptied all options and raised it, it was finally too late. My dad held my hands that day and told me he knew I'll make it really big and as his eyes closed and body started to get cold, I wondered why didn't it happen when I needed it the most?


-mayor

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